Bimbang

Klungkung, Bali 2017

This last two year come really fast. In between KOAS and my choice to continue searching for job, get job and try running bussines is really suffocating me. I can not tell this to anyone because i am afraid i will make people worried about me, suffocating me with quetion, and the worst is to judging/compare/etc me with anyone...

Since i can remember thing, i am always afraid to be compared. I know i never be a good leader, even just for my self i am always take wrong turn. there is a time i tought i already pass the time to be depress and will continue to be always positif. well, reality hit hard i think. There will always time you cant function properly. There will always time you waken and realise people have their own life and sometimes, they just cant help themself to hurt you even if they does not mean it.

It hurts, but i always tell my self if i meet a wall it means God want me to go to next level. But lately my vision of future becoming more blure that i can not find the way.

Now i find a little light to guide me. I dont even know if i will finding what i searching for, but like my teacher once said "just one thing in the world that is constant and will absolutely happen. It is change."